All the world's a stage
And thus I clothe my naked villany

沒錯
每逢這些時候
他們就開始無意識的嗨起來

商場的、傳媒的、學校的
一起鼓動
一埸明謀
漫山遍野
誓要把每一個地方都擾動過來

好吧
怕被人視怪胎
曲意裝成很投入的樣子–
要到哪裏慶祝？
這身新衣哪裏買的？
哪齣戲上畫了？
哪一家鬼屋不嚇人...

如此這般
忽然幾年已成習慣
但事過後
夢魂縈繞
堵不住失落的情緒

並不是計較
祂在哪天誕生
並不是計較
它哪一天最亮最圓
並不是計較
這一月這一天和那一月那一天有甚麼分別
甚至也不是計較
每一秒有多少兒童在因飢餓而死

單純的不投入
因此而失落
僅此而已
沒有更多

We are not born to be animals of expressions

Yet sometimes, I said sometimes,
Looking at the dull engines around me

I am all but horrified.

Fearing that for some day
I will become one of them,
Ghosts of the past glory days,
With no sayings of honour,
Of intelligent,
No self-possession.

The insatiable hunger still lingers
In my veins, unanswered,
Not forgotten, not forsaken.

SO, where to start with?

Just started reading Jean's Presidential Address. A really well written one. It’s indeed very inspiring, lots of information and idea which I never thought of. By reading the words you may know that she is of "something" special, not the blowing-water-job we usually do when we're drafting our reports.

“One who had no expectation to his own quality has no justification on his very own existence.” These words just come up of my mind. Somewhat frustrated. An idea deepened by talking to Candy.

Right, back to the main topic. So, somehow the X'mas party was held. I can't put it to be held "smoothly" or "successfully", and I'm not intending to be humble by saying so. Well, of course it can be MUCH better. I must say, I'm lucky enough to have good teammates and many helping hands (AND lots of luck) to not getting the whole thing screwed up.

At the beginning, it was Cyrus who had put the most effort. Very many thanks. Really feel sorry that the original games designed by you cannot be put to action.

Then it's Joe. The photos and music were not used in the party. Sorry for wasting your time for nothing. You are really impressing and helpful at the party. So clearly you understand the flow that I can comfortably leave the whole "station" to you. So few you talk, that from time to time I am wondering what you are thinking and feeling like, "oh, is he angry with me so he don’t talk to me again?"

Ellen. Joe did not talk much, and Amen had not been following for long. So if I did had an accident then you will be acting for me. Sometimes one must pose out. You got the qualities, be confident. An again sorry to half-forcing you to cancel your tutorial lessons.

And finally Amen. Your "lucky stars" are really magnificent, honestly. I was worrying that since I gave you the task so hastily and hadn't called you in the weekends that the stars may get problem. But it's beautifully done!

Sorry that the program had to change so frequently at the last few weeks, the timeslots, the games. It would have been much better if we can be together and forge the games. I should have informed you guys and gals at least of what happened.

So sucked in the 60022908 and publications (added to my laziness).

Many thanks to Caric, Karen and Shing for the big-TV words, action list, ghost-leg and questions. Saviors to my desperate condition. And also Jeff, Gugu and Kei for spending many hours for forming the latest program rundown.

And thanks to Simpson and Pius for not chasing me very tight for the 60022908 things for these few days.

That's why I say I had been lucky enough to have good teammates and friends.

So what are we lucky of other than those?

For having a MCAL party at the hotel for the FIRST time.
(So the people will have no comparison and will be more tolerable for the dxxn rundown)
For not over-running without any timed rehearsal.
For having the 2nd notebook without preparing for that.
For having 2 good MCs.
For the bosses coming earlier than expected and not having to leave early.
(Else the program will be a disastrously shattered one)
For the unexpected "best dress award" electing section directed by the bosses.
And more.

There had been many wrongs too, but we're lucky enough to have them not screwing the whole thing.

The lucky draw tickets were not all collected when MC told the guys to have lunch.
(And I lost my own and Edward Lo's tickets)
The answers came too early for the questions section.
The ghost-leg paper was not stuck firmly to the whiteboard and we should have written the results on the top.
The music stopped for some time as the CD-player didn't have a "repeat" function.
After the poker round of lucky draw it was actually a mess for distributing the prizes and announcing what they had chosen.
And the microphones malfunctioned for many times.

Phew.

There will be still quite a few tasks to do, like the settling down of receipts and financial report, collecting feedbacks and evaluating ourselves, compiling our experiences for the next year, collecting photos and videos, pulling down the decorations (at mid-Jan I suppose), etc.

Last night just come across a Naruto filmstrip. (I haven't been downloading or watching anime for more than half a year nor new music...) It said, "one must learn to take up the others, and to give others yourself to be taken up."

So the end has not yet come, nor the beginning of the end, but rather perhaps, the end of the beginning.

1.1 by 小KEN
命運就像強奸，你反抗不了就要學會享受。
工作就像輪奸，你不行了別人就上。
生活就像自慰，什么都靠自己雙手。
學習就像嫖娼，出完錢後又出力。
人生就像性愛，有高潮也有低潮。

1.2 by 聰
我聽人說, 現代人對伴侶的要求越來越多, 導致經常找不到理想伴侶而失望
偶而看到一個中了自己要求3-4樣的, 就以為真命天子出現了
就盲目地以為對方是100%合適
然後, 盲目總會清醒, 因為發現對方不像當初, 就說對方變了
其實對方也許沒變過, 只是當事人從夢中清醒了

1.3 by 小KEN
從前有個學生叫做布拉圖，有一天，布拉圖問老師老師，老師，什麼叫做愛情呀...........
老師就話你現在走入森林到搵一棵你覺 最大同最美麗的樹出來....於是布拉圖就走入森林到搵樹，
老師等呀等呀，很耐都未見佢出來.........過左好耐老師終於見到佢出來，但只見佢空手行出來，
老師就問布拉圖你為空手出來，布拉圖就話:我入到森林見到一棵很大的樹，
但遠處的樹好似更大，當我去到後山的樹就更美麗，
就是這樣我根本選唔到最好的樹，所以我就空手出來了，

之後布拉圖又問老師老師，什麼叫做婚姻，
老師就話:你入森林到選擇一棵你覺適合放在家中的樹出來，
於是布拉圖就入到森林到，轉眼間已經見到布拉圖拿著一棵樹出來了，
老師就問布拉圖你為何這麼快就出來?
布拉圖就話，因為我經歷左頭先，我知道我唔可能搵到最好，
所以我見到覺這棵樹好，我就唔多心了，老師就話你終於明白了

1.4 by ...忘記了

他現在已是研三，從未有過愛之體會。
在他大四那年，由於他一直在一個固定的教室裡自習，
注意到一個也一直在那個教室上自習的女孩，
而且，很巧的是，那個女孩每次都坐在他前面。
他越來越喜歡她，但是，內向的他卻不敢有任何舉動，只是每晚默默注視她的背影。
大四第二學期，已經不用上自習了，為了心愛的女孩，他依然每天自習。
當他把秘密告訴舍友們後，其他6個哥們一致決定幫他走出第一步。

於是，那天晚上，7個人一起去了教室。
但是，無論舍友們怎麼鼓勵他，他就是沒有勇氣走出關鍵的第一步，
舍友們無奈地說：「看來我們也幫不了你了，自己努力吧。」

回到宿舍，他徹夜難眠，痛定思痛，決定第二天無論如何也要向她表白。
第二天晚上，他如期見到了她。經過了心潮澎湃、坐如針氈等等過程，
內心的兩個小人兒激烈大戰了1800回合，最後，浪漫的騎士勝利了。

他遞給姑娘一張紙條：「妳好！我注意妳很久了。
妳是一個溫柔漂亮的姑娘，我能和妳做個朋友嗎？」

女孩看完字條開始收拾書本，完畢，站起來轉身問他：
「我要走了，你要不要和我一起走？」

接下來，他說了一句也許是他一生中說過的最經典的話：

「妳先走吧，我還有幾頁沒看完。」

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That sav’d a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears reliev’d;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believ’d!

1.1

Never have I had such a feeling
That I'd kneel down and kiss the ground
For He has not abandoned me
And heed my plea
In this peculiar hour

It won't be of any significance
To you, or to any others
But to me
It became more than a thousand years

And so it had.